Sunday, November 26, 2006

you are what you mold yourself to be... or something like that

beautiful comments me...or is it. no i am not being narsisistic (ok that might be too many is' and i'm sorry, but you do get the point don't you?) that really was the hypocritical beast who commented's name, bah! do any of you humans know pavia's email address? i forgot it. maybe i'll just ask her tomorrow, that'd be smart.
uh so ya i think it would be a good idea to post at the end of the day, don't you? y'know as review... but i feel like writing now and it's my blog so MWAHAHAHAHA! anyways, i just got back from youth group and it was amazing because as i was eating my CHILI CHEESE BURGER, i didn't spill on myself once! like totally omg! me! me of all people! no spillages! nothing! yipee! so anyways we did the youth group thing [which is one of the greatest church related things ever in life, really any of you, well besides noah because he's already in it, can come! we feed the homeless, go to weddings (ok well thats rare, i must admit, we don't tend to get married much between the youth, haha) so anyways we're all like one big mostly-happy family: we jump on eachother, our hideous pink and brown sectional, and my trampoline, yahoo!!!] ok well i must state that was an immensly long bracket thing, but i like brackets! THEY TOTALLY ROCK MY FACE OFF! lalalalalala! hmm... ok so anyways. i started thinking at the youth group thing, and this is what i thought: things are what you make them to be, and you are what you mold yourself to be. and i was just thinking about it quite a bit b/c one human from the youth group said two things that i remember, those of which are 'california is boring' and 'this swing is fun'. and i was thinking about it so much i wrote it in sharpie on my hand! geez. so it made me feel as if i had great amounts of freedom yet a major responsibility. like i can be anything, do anything, love anything, i can be who i am despite everything, but along with that comes a great power to how to live and i need to control that. like i can see life, love, anything, anyone, myself, in a certain way, but i must keep my power under control to not lose my well being, or ruin others. its remarkable, i think.
folks are coming over soon, and i'm really excited, because I LOVE PEOPLE! but another side to that fact is i've had to clean my room. i'm not sure if its a good thing or a bad thing, this room tidying business. i feel really good doing it, like as i'm throwing all this old paper in the recycling, i'm throwing off old work, and words, and deeds and feelings and i can start afresh. its nice to breathe again, without all this crap in my personal space. oh and guess what else i found out! I HAVE A FLOOR!!! shocker... well my dears i must return to my room cleaning and flex my mad tidying skills, but alas, i may yet return to brief you on my upcoming happenings, farewell sweet masters, sweet maidens!

7 comments:

me...or is it? said...

I think I get what you're saying, but I'm not sure, so could you help me out? I think you mean that, for an example, you can like ice cream if you darn well want to. People can stop you from eating ice cream, but they can't stop you from liking ice cream. And you can THINK whatever you want. you might be censored in the talking area, but not in the thinking area. Is that what you were getting at? If it is I totally agree--it is really cool.

I like cleaning up my room probably because I end up not cleaning. I'll start clearing stuff out and then I'll find some papers and I'll read them and think "aww...that was me." so ya.

OMG! i love people too but I never exactly knew how to say it. I guess I was overthinking it. It's very simple: I love people. Yay! I always get super-excited when people come probably because I'm lonely cuz there are no kids and my parents are cool but they are so boring because I see them every day. I guess I mean to say "I like people, but I especially like people when they're coming over to visit and they'll actually talk to you and do things with you." I'm especially excited when it's at my house, because I feel more comftorable there. So ya. We should make a people lovers club (tut tut...if only you knew who I was...)

Thanks for the blog by the way. I've never read a blog before but I was guessing that they'd all be immensely boring (e.g. Today I fed my cat. Then it went outside. Then it wanted to go in. Then it wanted to go out. then it wanted to go in....and so on) Don't you hate it when cats do that? Can't they just decide!!!!!!!
Anyway, so your blog talks about cool stuff (and I applaud your titles by the way, they're elegant and sophisticated.)
Tata.

me...or is it? said...

aha. I think i get it. you can VIEW things however you want and see things the way you want which gives you power but you have to do it wisely. For example you can really like this one person but know they won't be a good president so you don't vote for them. Hmmm....i'm trying to think of a better example. How about (well, this is silly, but) you really love ice cream but you know you can't eat too much or you'll get fat? Or you feel bad for someone but you can't let them see that because it would hurt their feelings? Hmmm...thanks for making me think. Give me some feedback.

MACKAKELENZIO said...

ok i think this might work and yes i am giving me...or is it? feedback. umm well first off are you jordan, anonymous fan? you talk like jordan, but your surprisingly funny to be jordan. no offense, jodjo, turkey can do that to ya. if your not jordan, well freak me out! you sound like him, what's wrong with you?!? um so anyways to answer your questions, uhh well what i was saying was that we as a people and individually have incredible power to see things in ways that they weren't intended to be or in ways no one else can. but this means that we can also see people and feelings that way and the way we react can be really powerful and affecting towards others, and we need to control that. and also that we all have the ability to see things in a positive or negative light. that perspective can change the whole way we live, the way we treat others and the way they treat us. that astounding power is the desicions we make to run our lives and affect others, if that makes any sense whatsoever. ya.

me...or is it? said...

Ok...I get it now. It's hard to word philosophy. That's really cool to figure things out like that. Sometimes i get this creepy feeling when I think about what the world would be like if there was...nothing. Just think about that. There's just...darkness. Or not even that. Nothing. No people, no life, no objects, or ANYTHING!!! The world would be nothing!!! It would be nothing! Just...nothing. But we wouldn't even know because we wouldn't be there!!! Or anyone else!!!! ARGHHHHH! That totally freaks me out!!
Yes, sadly, it is I, Jordan. I have nothing better to do than post endless comments on someone's blog. (By the way, I didn't know you could post comments on your own blog.) I thought the whole "this is mainly for yasameen and jordan....or maybe I am Yasameen or Jordan" thing would trick you. I guess you're just too smart for me. And I'm glad you thought I was funny (or at least during the time I was writing the comments.)
See ya tomorrow.

me...or is it? said...

My true identity has been revealed!

Phil C said...

hi mackenzie! this is la belleza NOT my dad (i had to use his username cause he said i would have to go to bed if i didn't. did you see casino royale? i really want to see it. my parents won't let me get a myspace right now but theyt said that i could get one in february. i guess you can get one in may then (sorry if your b-day is not in may, spring b-days confuzzle me profusely). i lurve you!

me...or is it? said...

Hi! I know I'm not Mackenzie but I saw Casino Royale and really liked it. I'm not normally into James Bond movies but this one was really good. It kind of went back in time when James Bond was just starting to be a 007 agent and was still learning. Are you Claire by the way? or are you Noah. Hmmm...Or maybe someone else. I'm jordan by the way. so ya. bye