Thursday, March 22, 2007

this life in my pocket: issue 12: C-O-N--F-U-S-E-D.


i don't understand. nothing computes. confused to tears.

"fusion" means putting things together. the prefix "con" means against, or not with. thus "con-fusion" means not connecting, basically. two thoughts not connecting, conjuncting to create one thing. not fusing together to form a wholistic thought.

i am confused. but instead of minor forms of confusion, mine is echoing out. symbolizing itself on our bodies, on our minds. our very souls will not match up. and i don't understand.

mindfulness...
whizzing by, passing by.
through empty space
and empty time.
i follow along with my eyes
but its too late, its all long gone.
that sense of knowing what to know
of knowing when its all too fast.
i can't keep up, theres no slowing down.
and all i find is what won't last.


FRUSTRATION!

ok in a situation, sometimes people are like "something is missing.." and everyone else is like "ooooh! what could it be?!", in other situations its like "ok, in our relationship i'm not feeling your love. its missing." and the others are like "yeah. maybe cuz i don't love you." (ok, forgive the hideously lame example. LoL that is the WORST example i've ever made. savor it. hnh.) and so EVERYONE knows whats missing, they just don't know where/how to get it. bumma for that couple of example 2! but like, y'know? you know what you need but you JUST CAN'T FIND IT!!! erg..! the AGONY!

confused. confusing. confuser. connyfusy. C-O-N-F-U-S-I-O-N.

i don't get it. how can you?

WHY am i confused? IS THAT what your asking? DO you really wanna know? READ MY LAST POST. AND THE ONE BEFORE!!!

i'm sorry. i just don't understand. how can this be? what have i done? agh..

1 comment:

me...or is it? said...

this is gonna sound annoying, and please don't shoot me!!! i'm really not trying to be annoying or preachy or anything!!!! ok well if you really want to know the truth i'm trying to think of things to say. Not just random crap, i'm not THAT annoying but things that I mean, but things that might not necessarily help you. AGain, I'm trying to feel what you're feeling but it's hard...so you have 3 choices.
1. read this and say "ooh i feel better now"
2. read this and say akk and pretend i never said it (i'm really not trying to be annoying)
3. don't read this (although that might be hard...why are humans SO CURIOUS??)
ok here goes

if everything made sense what would be the point?